There's a new guy at the gym

There’s a new guy at the gym,

And I think I’ve got a thing.

He has a snake tattoo on his leg,

I don’t think I can get him out of my head.

He gives me a look,

I give a glance back

The next day, he smiled at me,

and it was love, after that.

Finding something to say is hard

Maybe a question, ‘how’s your day?’

But he’s got his headphones in

‘I like your Nike’s....by the way!!!!!!!!’

I’ll let the tensions build,

Maybe they only live in my head

But I can’t stop thinking about him,

Maybe I’ll ask for his number instead.

Pre Covid-19 world

Struggles and troubles,
People and places

Pressure and hardship,
Deceit and expectations.

They’re all engaged,
They’re all enslaved

They’re all enraged,
It’s an eternal plague.

Let me sit in the corner,
Let me wander all alone.

Leave me to my own devices,
So it’s only me I have to condone.

So I can avoid all the crazies,
All the entitled, and the drama.

All of the expectation, an the put downs,
So I can sit waiting for the karma.

A long and winding phase

Get out into the sunshine, relax and let yourself unwind,
keep yourself busy, feel the sunshine’s warmth,
keep your mind well occupied.

There’s no use in hiding yourself away,
that’s not an enjoyable way to do it,
don’t worry about what you can’t control,
you’d think there’s just nothing to it.

A wise woman said rely on your resilience,
when you have your down and difficult days,
cos all of this will pass, it’s just a long and winding phase.

It’s not what it isn’t, but it is just what it is,
hello?, are you taking notice,
cos at there end there might be quiz.

‘That’s life’, the great Frank Sinatra said,
we’ve all gotten this far ahead,
after many times over the years,
we’ve fallen over, we’ve lost, we’ve bled.

We’ll come out of this stronger,
more aware of what we can do,
bound closer together, more aware of each other,
attached stronger together like glue.

The Storm

I wanted everyone to leave me alone
Thought my chance with love was through
Then one day my life would change
The day that I stumbled over you

I met you in a hail storm
On a wild and wintery night
The lightning all around us
So romantic I thought, the sight

We continued as we started
Wild, rough, rocky and free
Pushed the thoughts to the back of our head
The thoughts of how it’s really supposed to be

We ecstatically drove through the thunder
Through the wind, the rain, and the gale
Tried everything to keep it together
To keep from flying clear off of the rails

You’d give me a cyclonic headache
Confuse me with your gaze
Go away, then you came back stronger
Just got harder to navigate the maze

But I can’t do this anymore
Flying head way into the storm
Through the games, the lies and deceit
My face looking old and grey, and forlorn

The excitement has cleared away
The clouds, they’ve starting to clear
It’s not really all that fun anymore
Without the thunder, the struggle, and the tears

And all of a sudden again it’s me
Just my thoughts, my words, my routine
Just going through the motions
With not one storm cloud to be seen

If it will happen to me

The friendly glances, the shared looks

We can read each other, just like a book

The comforting compliments, the silent support

You walk together with me, it’s just so easy to talk

Every word is cherished, every glance embraced

Although you don’t quite say it, it’s written all over your face

We play this game, we weave this web, and before too long

We’ll be stuck, stuck in over our heads

But still we go, though avoid as I might

You entice me back with skill, with no hint of a fight

What will come of all of this? This invisible, impossible desire

If something, it will come with grief, with regret, and with fire

Why does life do this? Make two different minds meet

Two minds who already walked too far, too far in their own feet

Is it all worth the risk? Is it all worth the pain?

To follow your path, with everything to gain

Only time will tell if it’s all to be

If it will all work out, if it will happen to me

All those years ago, I should have learned back then,

That you were just bad news, but here you are again

I fall for your tricks

I fall for your glance

I fall for your attention

Again, I let us dance

Only time will tell if it’s all meant to be

If it will all work out, if it will happen to me

You’ve bought your smile back, that charm, and those eyes

All wrapped up nice and sweet, but it’s all just a disguise

Before long I see, it’s the same harsh façade

We’re going nowhere fast, and soon you will discard

You’ll forget me like your keys

A distant memory I’ll become

But still I will be here

Still waiting for the one

The nights are long

Time passes by so slow

I’m by myself, with nowhere to go

I walk alone, there’s only me, and still I struggle, struggle there to see

That in me, I have me, and that’s how it will ever be

Only time will tell if it will all work out, if it will happen to me

The cyclist and the pedestrian

The cyclist and the pedestrian collided on the street

The cyclist and the pedestrian, what an unfortunate way to meet

What the f%#k are you doing! 

It’s a footpath! the pedestrian grumbles, 

On the footpath, the cyclist’s dazed

But the cyclist isn’t humbled

Instead the cyclist argues, the footpath is for all to share

And even if it isn’t, you’re still gonna find me there

Cos I’m a cyclist, I’ll do what I like, 

I’ll make my own rules, 

keep peddling on my bike

And it’s you’re fault if you get in my way, should have been paying more attention, should be off your phone, 

should have stayed home today

I ride with the wind flowing through my helmet 

It’s the closest thing to flying

I’m winning at life, I’m alive, I’m free as a bird

Cos of that I just can’t stop smiling....

So f#%$ing get out of my way!!!

Red Flags

They'd been appearing since the beginning,

Those red flags I packed away.

I did all I could to ignore them,

Though they insisted that they should stay.

Not too far below the surface,

Just enough so I couldn't forget.

Loitering in my weakest moments,

The red flags id soon come to regret.

I tried thinking of all the good things,

The fun, the companion, the carefree.

But all of those things didn't mean anything,

When you took someone else, and that someone wasn't me.

Should have listened to my instincts,

Asked the questions, called you out.

But instead, you played me for the fool,

Now all I really wanna do is shout.

Tell you how you made me feel,

How you ripped and tore away my heart.

But you don't care now anyway,

Since I'm done, I’m finished, now I've played my part.

So fuck you I say, I'm moving on,

Won't let that happen to me again.

I’ll grow a stronger, deeper, wiser heart,

For someone else better than you, times 10.