There's a new guy at the gym

There’s a new guy at the gym,

And I think I’ve got a thing.

He has a snake tattoo on his leg,

I don’t think I can get him out of my head.

He gives me a look,

I give a glance back

The next day, he smiled at me,

and it was love, after that.

Finding something to say is hard

Maybe a question, ‘how’s your day?’

But he’s got his headphones in

‘I like your Nike’s....by the way!!!!!!!!’

I’ll let the tensions build,

Maybe they only live in my head

But I can’t stop thinking about him,

Maybe I’ll ask for his number instead.

If it will happen to me

The friendly glances, the shared looks

We can read each other, just like a book

The comforting compliments, the silent support

You walk together with me, it’s just so easy to talk

Every word is cherished, every glance embraced

Although you don’t quite say it, it’s written all over your face

We play this game, we weave this web, and before too long

We’ll be stuck, stuck in over our heads

But still we go, though avoid as I might

You entice me back with skill, with no hint of a fight

What will come of all of this? This invisible, impossible desire

If something, it will come with grief, with regret, and with fire

Why does life do this? Make two different minds meet

Two minds who already walked too far, too far in their own feet

Is it all worth the risk? Is it all worth the pain?

To follow your path, with everything to gain

Only time will tell if it’s all to be

If it will all work out, if it will happen to me

All those years ago, I should have learned back then,

That you were just bad news, but here you are again

I fall for your tricks

I fall for your glance

I fall for your attention

Again, I let us dance

Only time will tell if it’s all meant to be

If it will all work out, if it will happen to me

You’ve bought your smile back, that charm, and those eyes

All wrapped up nice and sweet, but it’s all just a disguise

Before long I see, it’s the same harsh façade

We’re going nowhere fast, and soon you will discard

You’ll forget me like your keys

A distant memory I’ll become

But still I will be here

Still waiting for the one

The nights are long

Time passes by so slow

I’m by myself, with nowhere to go

I walk alone, there’s only me, and still I struggle, struggle there to see

That in me, I have me, and that’s how it will ever be

Only time will tell if it will all work out, if it will happen to me

Red Flags

They'd been appearing since the beginning,

Those red flags I packed away.

I did all I could to ignore them,

Though they insisted that they should stay.

Not too far below the surface,

Just enough so I couldn't forget.

Loitering in my weakest moments,

The red flags id soon come to regret.

I tried thinking of all the good things,

The fun, the companion, the carefree.

But all of those things didn't mean anything,

When you took someone else, and that someone wasn't me.

Should have listened to my instincts,

Asked the questions, called you out.

But instead, you played me for the fool,

Now all I really wanna do is shout.

Tell you how you made me feel,

How you ripped and tore away my heart.

But you don't care now anyway,

Since I'm done, I’m finished, now I've played my part.

So fuck you I say, I'm moving on,

Won't let that happen to me again.

I’ll grow a stronger, deeper, wiser heart,

For someone else better than you, times 10.